Because It's On My Mind Now

So the story of the 11 year old trans girl in Germany being institutionalized has been especially touching a raw nerve for me of late.

When I was 16, about a half a year before my juvey rapes, I was institutionalized for 30 days at the asylum (I REFUSE to call them "psychiatric hospitals" because that would imply they heal anyone), for an evaluation to determine the cause of my anger issues.

So one day I'm drawing naked women, and the staff and doctors zeroed in on it. They tore up my drawings and told me very matter-of-factly my problems stemmed from a misogynist personality, that I hated women and was sexist and violent because of it. Having dealt by then with a good decade of shrinks and authority figures misdiagnosing me and NEVER listening TO me, I started screaming at them. I wasn't drawing naked women because I hated women and just saw them as fucktoys, I was drawing MYSELF as I was SUPPOSED to be.

They proceeded to restrain me violently enough to bruise me and dislocate my bad shoulder despite my only yelling and making ZERO physical threats, doped me up to the point of being all but lobotomized, and threw me in a padded room naked. I was so doped up I couldn't control my bodily functions or even stand up and pissed myself sitting there, (which they determined I was faking somehow) and was left laying in my own filth without food for 3 days. They refused to let me out or stop shooting me up with drugs, (and refused to EVER tell me WHAT I was being drugged WITH), until I "admitted" that I was making up my gender issues and that I was a bitter angry misogynist who wanted to hurt women.

And after 3 days without food sleeping in my own waste, I gave in and told them what they wanted to hear. Until the day I was transferred back to Juvey when I was put in the truck, and I looked squarely at the shrink who ordered all this and told her "I lied to get out of that room. YOU lied to put me in it. I am a girl, and you are a horrible abusive evil person, and I hope you rot in hell for what you do here."

She fumed and told the guards to make sure the Juvey staff ignored anything I said and to ONLY acknowledge HER report. Which of course the guards agreed to. It was primarily BECAUSE of her bullshit report that I got transferred to the hardcore prison wherein I was raped every night for 3 fucking months.

I fear for that little girl. I KNOW what those bastards will do to her to convince her she's a boy. And it terrifies me that she'll learn to play along so they'll stop mistreating her.


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Why This Is Important

While browsing the web yesterday I stumbled across this quiz page.


The quiz on that page is dismissive and demeaning to trans women. 8 of the 10 women pictured in the quiz are Transsexual Women. The key word there being WOMEN. Right from the start, the whole quiz is based on identifying "Fake" women by asking you to determined if the women you see are male or female.

I answered female to all 10, out of a morbid curiosity to see if this would follow the path I feared it would, and sadly, it didn't fail my expectations. When I scored two out of ten, I was greeted with this lovely transphobic garbage;

"You don't know Jack! (Or Jane!)"

"You're not good at pin pointing the exact gender of another questionable person - what's up with that? You don't know Jack about looking for the tell-tale signs of a man/woman! Brush up on your skills, buddy!"

Trans women are "questionable people"? Accepting them all as women means I can't see "telltale signs of a man/woman"?


So I tried to be nice and contacted them privately to point out how blatantly transphobic this quiz is, explain to them WHY it's demeaning and transphobic, and ask them to either fix the quiz's wording or remove it entirely.

THIS is the condescending bs they sent me today.

"Hi Penny!

We truly appreciate your input in regards to our "Male or Female" gallery. I'd like to indicate that ChaCha prides itself in providing content that appeals to a vast array of individuals in all walks of life - that includes those in the GLBT community. We would never publish anything that could be viewed as derogatory or hateful to any race, religion or orientation as we openly respect and accept diversity. However, ChaCha does generate galleries and quizzes that are primarily for entertainment purposes, which are meant to be light-hearted and interesting.

The gallery in question was authored in a tasteful way and does not exhibit any language or attitude that would defame a transgendered individual. Our content team has reviewed the gallery and determined that the material is acceptable and will not be removed from our site.

Again, we truly appreciate your thoughts and insight in this matter.

- ChaCha Support
Thank you,

Customer Relations

Ticket Details
Ticket ID: 142017
Department: Customer Relations
Priority: Low
Status: Closed"

I'll bet you my left leg their content team doesn't have a single bloody trans person on it.

So they had their chance to do the right thing privately. Now I'm telling the world about the way ChaCha.com views trans women, and how blatantly they think such blunt misgendering, demeaning transphobic crap is acceptable, non-defaming and low priority.

To say nothing of the two cis women in the quiz whom the site author's clearly think nothing of comparing to men just to justify mocking trans women.

So tell ChaCha.com, this quiz IS defaming, demeaning, offensive and transphobic, and that they need to stop ignoring the complaints of trans women and strt respecting them.